FRESH

Five minute write

Many times in my life I wanted a fresh start. After failing in my walk with God, relationships ending, losing loved ones; I would look for a fresh start thinking it will be better, I have changed I can make it work this time. Often this fresh start would require moving because to stay where I was, I didn’t know how to, not after all of the pain I had experienced. So, I would pray and seek, looking for the opportunity to move to a new place, to start over. This happened because I did not understand what I was doing wrong or how to change, for the fresh start to really be different.

Recently I moved again, but this time there was a plan. I knew that I was moving towards something that God wanted for me, that he had planned many years ago, but he needed to change me on the inside before I would be ready to receive what he had. To me it looked like a long detour but to God it looked like preparation.

So here I am in a time and place of refreshment. A place ordained by God to grow me and bring me to a place of maturity through healing and belonging. The plan has not yet all rolled out and come to pass but I am on the path moving towards its fulfillment. The first step is to allow Him to heal the anger that is deep in me, the anger that is destructive, to teach me and help me become an agent of healing for others. I pray that through my life here in this new place, as I walk and work towards healing of anger in my heart, that God will be glorified and many others will be impacted.